“Dysmorphia”
By Melia Hudgin
This song is originally produced and was written about my struggles with body dysmorphia. Body dysmorphia is a real mental illness and I wanted to highlight some of the things I deal with on a regular basis from this disorder in this song. I’m hoping through my music that some people who are facing stigma with mental illness can be comforted by the fact that they are not alone. Mental illness that is expressed through art, media and performance help end preconceived negative notions about these disorders.
What’s something you could tell me about myself
that i don’t already know
how could you teach me how to be myself
when i hate who i’ve become
can somebody tell me what the fuck i’m doing here
can somebody tell me why i can’t look in the mirror
looking for a sense of direction
because i’m getting no where with you
tell me what you see in my reflection
because i’m blind to the truth
this body dysmorphia
i don’t know who i am
this body dysmorphia
i’ll never know
Ohhh where do I go
What do I do
I’m so fucking confused
since you’ve been gone
i don’t have a reason to live
all i ever wanted
was to find somebody i could fall in love with
could you
love me better than i can
because i can’t (i can’t do it, no)
this body dysmorphia
i don’t know who i am
this body dysmorphia
i’ll never know
this body dysmorphia
i don’t know who i am
this body dysmorphia
i’ll never know
