“Dysmorphia”

By Melia Hudgin


This song is originally produced and was written about my struggles with body dysmorphia. Body dysmorphia is a real mental illness and I wanted to highlight some of the things I deal with on a regular basis from this disorder in this song. I’m hoping through my music that some people who are facing stigma with mental illness can be comforted by the fact that they are not alone. Mental illness that is expressed through art, media and performance help end preconceived negative notions about these disorders.



What’s something you could tell me about myself

that i don’t already know


how could you teach me how to be myself

when i hate who i’ve become


can somebody tell me what the fuck i’m doing here

can somebody tell me why i can’t look in the mirror


looking for a sense of direction

because i’m getting no where with you


tell me what you see in my reflection

because i’m blind to the truth


this body dysmorphia

i don’t know who i am

this body dysmorphia

i’ll never know


Ohhh where do I go

What do I do

I’m so fucking confused


since you’ve been gone

i don’t have a reason to live

all i ever wanted

was to find somebody i could fall in love with


could you

love me better than i can


because i can’t (i can’t do it, no)


this body dysmorphia

i don’t know who i am

this body dysmorphia

i’ll never know


this body dysmorphia

i don’t know who i am

this body dysmorphia

i’ll never know



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